With every good thing comes a bad thing.
You have to admit that life surely isn't what we asked for, but really the choice is yours to spend it wisely. Go ahead and waste your days away, or, instead, you can make life what you want it to be. If you sit around waiting for change, will it ever happen? It's possible, but the statistics are not very high for that.
Life will continue to surprise you!
I know from experience that waiting won't get you anywhere fast. You could spend years waiting, and nothing would ever come to you. Wait for love? Sure it might come, eventually, but really that is a choice you have to make yourself. I have anxiety, as you know. It all started in 5th grade, and now I'm a senior in high school. You could say I waited six to seven years to go on medication if you did not really know me. Truthfully, I spent those six to seven years throwing myself blindly into situations I knew would cause me pain that I did not want to experience. I stuck it out through the thick and the thin, and without that I probably would not be where I currently am. Yes, I am on medication, but for a good reason. Without medication and therapy my process of getting better can only go so far. I did a lot of the work of getting over my anxiety by myself in that time period, which really surprised my therapist, but I still needed a little push and guiding to help me the rest of the way.
So, waiting you say? I think not.
If I had waited, I would be stuck in my house each and every day without a best friend or a guy that I love. I'd be home-schooled, not having experienced what it is like to be a leader or have the means of being around a huge variety of people that could guide me to be who I am. I am grateful for me being the person I am, and I wouldn't take away the pain I experienced for anything. I'm not saying that the pain of feeling like you were about to vomit up every ounce of your stomach is easy to handle, because believe me that was hell, and still is when my anxiety comes around.
I deal.
I know everyone has the strength to be someone they don't think they can be and to show the world they can make a difference. Don't let anyone tell you different. Life is hard at times, but it is also rewarding. I just went through one of the worst weeks in my life, and no matter how much I cried and whined and hated myself, I kept telling myself "it will be okay" and to just "hold out". Now, today, looking back, it was all worth it.
Don't wait for change...be the change!
2 comments:
so let me just say that i feel extreamly glad to be the first one to comment on your blog post. I am sorry for how hard your life has been and i've been in a similar position. While i never had a problem with anxiety i did have a problem with people picking on my and constantly being teased. But i never let them change who i was and i like to believe that i am stronger because of their teasing. As for having a man, a wise person once told me that before your can love someone you must first learn to love yourself. So continue to be your sweet and crazy self and learn to love yourself just the way you are :)
Hey! Do I know you? I know your name isn't Dexter so who are you really? I mean how else would you know if I'm sweet and crazy? I would love to chat more about bullying and anxiety because those things I actually can relate to. I have been bullied before but it was never really something I thought of much as bullying. I can write a post about that if you'd like...any other suggestions?
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